Recent Thoughts

As a person who has been raised in the "Modern World", I've been taught that the unknowable is a thing to be conquered. Its a thing to be pulled apart and dissected to its basic elements. My mind naturally works this way. I'm conditioned to think that if something is unsettled, that's a bad thing.
I'm discovering that faith is, in a lot of ways, at odds with this way of thinking. Theology, and Christianity in general, has been appealing to me for quite some time. Looking back, its original appeal was more concerning discussions that I look back on as unimportant in the grand scheme of things. Theology was more comparable to math for me. Something to be reasoned out into categories and formulas, very black and white, analytical and concrete, systematic and debatable...you get the idea.
But now I'm slowly encountering a different form of Theology, more comparable to poetry, a dance of sorts. Being part of the discussion/conversation as opposed to a debate/lecture. I'm learning to appreciate and even enjoy the gray (not just in my hair), the abstract and indivisible. A Theology that is alive and growing and growing, as opposed to something to be conquered and analyzed. More mystical than a jazz solo...something you can't think, you just have to feel.
I never in my life have liked poetry, and I even went through a time where I wrote quite a bit. Poets never made sense to me - hippies, unsettled and unstable spirits trying to "get in touch" with who knows what. But something in my analytical, sterilized mind has started to brew. We'll see what happens...